melluransa: (Ga-in orange)
This short film had me teary-eyed!

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She's awesome. She's the one who really raised me, since the divorce and my dad moved away. From since I was little, to now... From kissing scrapes to assuring me wasn't going to fail college, she's been that person.

Since I was little, she ingrained in me the importance of education. She home schooled me and made learning fun. Through this, I learned how to become self-reliant, independent, organized, and passionate for learning. These skills resulted in my great success at university. She's let me learn too on my own, by balancing advice and guidance with letting me try things on my own. Education is a big part of my life, and I owe it all to her.

There's so many other ways she's inspired me.
----Her strength and work ethic. I never feel like I can't do something because she's raised me to believe in myself. She's always pushing me to aim higher.
----Standing up for those who don't have a voice, and to have compassion. She's so nice! She's always helping her co-workers above and beyond, even helping them in sorting out their own lives.
----Her ability to recover. A lot of life events have happened to us, but she always picks up and moves on. Most recently, I was amazed at her determination and physical strength in learning how to walk again after breaking her leg and ankle in five places. Not to say she wasn't scared, but that she tackled it and worked her leg. We're so glad she can walk. She's recovered from other things. She's amazing.

There's so much more about her, so many facets to her role in our family and our relationship. She's definitely one of the tops, if not THE top, on my list of 100 things I love.
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Warning: talk of death and loss.

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I love you so much Chester. I loved your soft ears when I first met you, and then I quickly began to love all of you. I love how exuberant you were in life, how you could never just walk when we were outside, but you had to run with your short little legs. I love how you followed me everywhere, even on long walks for miles and trekking in the woods. I love how you used to escape when we'd tie you up in the backyard, and just run without a destination. Moving to the farm was the best thing we did for you, because you loved that freedom of running around in the country and being a dog.

You were in so much pain and you'd suffered so much before you left, and I'm so sorry. I'm glad that you're not in pain. I held you and put my face in your back like I always did when I took comfort in you, and I treasured your warmth because I knew it wouldn't last after the injection.

I didn't tell you I loved you with my mouth, because I couldn't. I know you know I love you. You went to me, looked at me as they brought you into the room. I smelled you, felt you, heard you breathe, loved loved loved you.

And then I watched the liquid in the syringe become less and less as the chemical was injected into your system. It was a sedative overdose, so you fell asleep.

I hope you felt me holding you, and that you weren't too scared even though I knew you probably were. I'd held you countless times before, but I never felt you grow so heavy.

You sighed and your head got heavy on my arm, and I knew. That was your last breath. I couldn't believe how quickly your life was gone. The vet listened to your heartbeat, and your heart had stopped. It happened so quickly.

I miss you so much and I wish you never had to die, because you were my best friend. You were there for me for so much of my life-- probably even half of it. You were there for me when things were hard; you were my constant.

I'm so sorry we had to put you to sleep, but you were old and you had cancer and the surgery to fix you would have made the remainder of your life pretty difficult. The surgery would have been hard on your old body; living afterwards, healing from it, all of that would have been hard for you. I'm so so sorry that you suffered.

You were the best dog ever, my best friend. I'm so lucky to have had you in my life. I'm so glad you were at the pound that one day my mom went there looking for a dog. That day she found my best friend.

You were old, and I knew your time was coming. I treasured every moment I had with you. I loved seeing you run around youthfully like you used to. I valued every time we cuddled and every time you looked at me.

You looked at me today, for the last time. You looked up at me with your big brown eyes wondering what was going on and why we were in that scary place. I'm sorry you were scared. I hope me being there with you made it better. I hope I felt like home, because you were MY home, you were home to me.

I love you so much. It's going to be difficult and painful to live without you. I don't even know what to do with your food bowl, and your dog hair is still all over the place.

I'm going to miss your warmth and security when I'm sleeping, the way your body feels curled up against mine. I'm going to miss you so much, I love you so much and I love you and I wish you were here. I love you my sweet Chester. I will always love you and miss you.

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Yoinked from thilia and em-rose483 on Livejournal because they and this meme are all very awesome. This was really enjoyable to do!

1. Favorite childhood book?

Ella Enchanted by Gail Carson Levine. I read it over and over and over...

2. What are you reading right now?

The Canon: A Whirlgig Tour of the Beautiful Basics of Science by Natalie Angier. It's what it says -- science writing -- written very well, very interesting, and very accessibly. :)

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Hey! From [ profile] steinsgrrl (and then the others I saw [ profile] em_rose483, [ profile] mariesen, and [ profile] zeph317toho) (p.s. can you tell I just learned the lj user tag correctly and am slightly proud of myself?)

Leave me a comment and I will reply with why I like you. If I don't know you, I'll either make something up or tell you why I like your LiveJournal. You must pay for the privilege by posting a message like this one on your LiveJournal.
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I had the pleasure of participating in a surprise birthday party for one of the elderly clients at the speech-language clinic. All the other elderly clients come on that day, and they socialize in group therapy. For the party, we invited the spouses and everyone. The room was crowded with cute little old ladies with their sweater jackets and colorful jewelry, and their husbands with button-down shirts tucked into their khakis. There was yummy food. We even played a little trivia game and chatted. It was lovely.

It was so sweet to see the clients and their spouses. Some of the clients have paralysis and paresis on one side of their bodies which made getting the food difficult. Their spouses would get the food and ask what the other spouse wanted, or help their spouse with a supporting arm as they went together to the table with the food.

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Awww, this meme!!!! It's really nice and spreads a lot of positivity. :) My link is here. What is the meme? Well, read on.


RULES: Comment with your username and then people comment ANONYMOUSLY with the things they find beautiful and wonderful and magnificant about you. Anonymously because it's nice sometimes not to have a familiar name connected with a beautiful saying and thus it can be anyone from your best online friend to that new person that you just added. And after you comment with your username, go and find the names of other people you find beautiful and leave them a little YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE... message. Anyone is welcome to participate and feel free to spread the beautiful love to your journals as well.
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Each time is different and wonderful. Man, I love him.

The first time he does a ballet twirl. The second time his costume explodes. The third time, it's all the other guys ganging up on him. The fourth time he makes a funny noise and that other members can't sing for laughing. XD

This means war!!! :D )
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These songs lift my spirits when I'm down. ^_^

Don't Cry (areia remix) by Park Bom

Love Song by Big Bang

Stupid Liar by Big Bang

Gritar by Leamitie

Geisterfahrer by Tokio Hotel (no youtube vid for this one)

Puedes Contar Conmigo bu La Oreja De Van Gogh

White Love by Seungri (which sounds remarkably similar to Puedes Contar Conmigo so maybe that's why I like it)

Perdoname by La Oreja De Van Gogh

Brand New Reason by Fleet
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They wouldn't let me watch it in the U.S. FINALLY I SEE IT NOW

;u; They're performing on an airport runway. OMG *flailing* That means so much since the song is about taking flight~ Because only you, you can teach me how to fly! Comets in the sky! Like the sun, like the sea... To draw my name above the earth. like the sun, like the sea~

Paraguas por el cielo from Roberto B on Vimeo.

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If Bill strutted into the room looking like that, I would abandon my entire life for him if he'd ask me to.

Plus the "toyboy" interview, because that popped up in suggestions. Don't you just love how youtube gets you watching more and more videos, without ever stopping? Anyway, Bill looks intrigued and highly entertained at the thought. Wouldn't that be cute? The twins with older women? I think that would be cute. I read somewhere about their horoscopes (as much faith as I put in horoscopes, lol, but the ideas from which are cute to think about) that the twins would do better with older women anyway. Also that they like to be dominated.
melluransa: (andrej pink)
By Clazziquai Project with English subs. I had no idea how lovely the lyrics are! About waking up and falling asleep next to someone you love. The way they sing the duet combined with the lines is so precious. Like they sing apart, up until the line "I found my path for the first time." And that's when they sing together. So cute! And of course, the song is the smoothest thing ever. Love this band.

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In no order, I love Tokio Hotel for:

The members
Their music
Their devotion and work ethic
Their love for the fans
The fandom and all that it entails~
The friends they've enabled me to make
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NiƱa, si esta cancion no la hubiera sacado la oreja y la ubieras sacado tu en ingles... aun asi me encantariaaaa.. de verdad te quedo perfecta y es cierto no es el exacto sentimiento pero el que tu le das es uno nuevo y diferente... eso hace un interprete... excelente te felicito.. me gusto tanto que en cierto punto la empece a cantar XD

Girl, if this song wasn't released by "la oreja de van gogh" and was made by you, in english, I would still love it! It's true, you did so perfect... and sure, it's not the exact feeling like the original; but what you give it is something new and different... You made an interpretation. Excellent-- congratulations! I liked it so much that at one point I started to sing along! XD

I am tickled pink! Thanks so much to this person for brightening my night~ People leave the nicest comments on my song, maybe because lodvg fans are more sophisticated judging from their taste in music.
melluransa: (love is bill tom gustav and georg)
"You are the best thing to have ever happened to me"

:') Her words are beneath the cut. <3

I'm not closing the book, just turning the page. )
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Wow. These are pretty awful.
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In an interview lately, Bill talked about the playlist he'd choose for his funeral. He seemed to have put a lot of thought in it, and it made me think about mine too. I realized it's not only about the songs, but about the legacies and message you want to leave behind. The songs below instantly came to mind. There's only five. None of these songs are sad! All of them have happy messages, because I always want my loved ones to be happy.

Historia De Un Sueno - La Oreja De Van Gogh
Tokio Hotel is nice and all, but LOVG is my favorite band of all time. This song is about death, but it's happy. Here's my translation of it.

Sorry I came by without calling. I know this isn't the right time, and much less the right place. But I had to tell you that heaven isn't so bad.

Tomorrow you'll remember. "Nothing more than a dream," you'll repeat to yourself. And in the form of an answer, a shooting star will pass by.

I have to leave again; leave you, my love, on Earth in peace. I only wanted to say goodbye, give you a kiss and see you one more time.

Promise me you'll be happy, that'll you always be this pretty when you laugh. That's the way I want to remember you. Like that, like before. My darling, it's best this way.

And now you need to rest. You dress for bed like the years before. Remember how I would sing to you before you went to sleep? Now they only let me visit you during the spaces between your dreams. It's a sad night when I don't get the chance to say goodbye.

And now I reach for you, only you. This is our journey. We walk it separately now. I'm running late and I have to leave again; in a few seconds you're going to wake up.

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melluransa: (love is bill tom gustav and georg)
It's so easy to focus on the negative. My mom and I were talking about how narrow-minded people are, how they make such derogatory, hurtful, and inaccurate comments that insult entire classes of people. That shit's depressing.

But today, I stumbled upon this site, which reminds me that not all people in this world are horrible.

This one made me cry. It's so beautiful! I'm tearing up again.

A week ago, my 17 year old daughter died in a car wreck. The Hindu family that lived on the property let me put up a big wooden cross with her name on it. People care, no matter what their religion.
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